...I dont know anymore ...how do i proceed ...I dont know anymore ...All i can do is scream ...Make a joke unwillingly ...Talk to someone when i can ...Do the homework i have ...Punch my hand on the wall until it bleeds ...say hi to anyone i see ...Cook something new ...Stare at the wall ...Regretting the past ...Forcing myself to be myself when im already myself ...Laying on the bed, smacking the bed ...praying to god for my loved ones safety and health ...watering my Basil and Parsley ...feeding my fish ...drinking beer ...closing my eyes, and falling asleep on my office chair...